A Wife Loved Like The Church

I Want to Go Home Now

Posted on: December 13, 2010

Our apartment is mostly unpacked, our Christmas decorations are up and life is moving forward. Yet all I can think is “I want to go home now.”

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The last three weeks have been a whirlwind to say the least. And now, now things are slowing down and reality has hit. Reality that I am a thousand miles from “home”. Reality that I can’t go down the street to visit friends.  Reality that my daughter keeps asking to play with her friends and she just can’t. Reality that this move is harder than I thought it would be.

I don’t doubt that our family is exactly where God wants us to be. God has shown us time and time again that He is leading us in this new direction. But I can’t help but miss the life we left behind – the friends, the family, we had to say goodbye to. That, that is the hardest part.

Yet, like every lesson, every trial, God proves His faithfulness. God proves that His family isn’t limited to one state or one community. He is bigger than that. Last night we had a chance to meet with a group of families within our new church, Austin Stone. And it was good. So very, very good. I left telling Jonathan that God really met me where I was, in need of feeling His presence in a community, and my heart was full.

I dearly miss our “family” in Iowa, but I am overwhelmed by God’s goodness to show me that wherever He is, wherever His heart is, there my family is also.



7 Responses to "I Want to Go Home Now"

I am still in denial Sarah. Thanks for writing a blog so I can still feel like you live across town. Except of course when you will inevitable talk about how warm it is. I miss you a lot.

I know how you feel. I am feeling the same things today.
P.S. I’m so jealous that you attend Austin Stone. Tell Emily Ward hi for me. 🙂

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Sarah Im sorry you’re feeling the move and lonliness and wanting friends/home. I can see why, it seems you left a great great community. It’s exciting to hear how God encouraged you at Austin Stone. I pray you quickly find your way into supportive loving Godly community and continue to feel God’s goodness!

I am so glad you get to go to Austin Stone! My friend Emily Ward of http://emilywardmusic.blogspot.com/ sings there! She is from Iowa City, maybe you two already know each other 🙂 Here mom is one of David’s preschool teachers! Praying for your transition! Enjoy the warm weather. The high was 5 today. Sad.

Andrea, we do know Emily! Jonathan knew her from when he helped with music at 24-7 way back in the day.

I am kinda pretending you are still here as I read your blog. Please don’t stop writing. I check almost daily to see if you have written something else. I am always interested in what you have to say.

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