A Wife Loved Like The Church

Blaming someone else for my sin

Posted on: May 21, 2010

Yesterday, in a moment that was a grand fall from grace, I sinned against Julia. I won’t go into the details, because really, who wants to ever re-live sin? Let’s just say, my sin was ugly and shameful. What was even worse, was that even in the moment, I knew I was sinning and choose to do it any way. My thought process went like this: “If she didn’t do {insert two year old behavior} then I wouldn’t have done {insert sin}.”

Later that afternoon I realized I blame a lot of other people for my sin. I do a fabulous job of if-they-hadn’t-done-that-I-wouldn’t-have-done-that. It’s their fault I sinned.

Wrong.

I choose to sin. And yesterday, I knowingly choose to sin. Against my daughter. I can’t even begin to tell you what amount of disgrace and shame I felt. When I started realizing just how much I blame others {and awfully, but truthfully, my children} for my sin and bad behavior, I couldn’t help but begging for forgiveness. Forgiveness from Julia. Forgiveness from my Father.

I sin, because I choose to sin. Not because someone sins against me.

God forgives me, because He chooses to forgive me. Not because I deserve to be forgiven.

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5 Responses to "Blaming someone else for my sin"

Yesterday was a rough one for me too. Hope today is better!

If you hadn’t written this post, I wouldn’t feel convicted about my own sin. Darn you!!!

Whew I’m sure this is one of the most challenging aspects of parenting, suddenly all your sin is on display for someone to see and possibly copy. What a great lesson of redemption and reconciliation for the kids.

Wow, that really gave me pause to think and assess my own actions and reactions. Thanks for that.

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