And so it begins
Posted on: January 10, 2010
- In: Life
- 5 Comments
I feel like life is on repeat.
Child in the next room, awake before she should be, trying to soothe herself back to sleep.
Me at the computer, midnight blogging.
At some point this week, I realized I’ve been averaging at, or less than, 2 hours of sleep at one time for the last month. Last night, I was up every hour from 1-7. I think the strangest part is, I am not as exhausted as I imagined. There are moments during the day when I think I might very well fall over from exhaustion, but I manage to make it through. But, I can feel it catching up to me. I can feel my bones ache with tiredness. And so it begins.
Crying.
It.
Out.
Three words I dread as a mother. Three words that seem to bring far more misery than relief. With Julia, CIO was a tedious, painful task that resulted in, well, nothing. She still wakes up at night. For Hannah, I’ve been far more guarded, allowing her a pass, if you will, mostly because I am far to tired to allow her to CIO. She had been doing fine, sleeping 4+ hours in a row. But, since the move, things have been getting progressively worse. She tossed in an addition wake up time, then another, then another, and then another. Before I knew what happened, she was waking up every 1.5-2 hours. Sleep much?
Maybe, as you read this, you can pray for me. I’m less than enthusiastic about CIO, but don’t know any other option other than nursing all night. Just pray for grace and sleep. For me and Hannah.
5 Responses to "And so it begins"
January 10, 2010 at 10:52 am
Oh yes! I feel your pain! Right now in fact! After a long Christmas traveling schedule, including Faithwalkers, we are back to waking up 2-4 times a night again. We do CIO, but it has been a tedious experience. I know that feeling of painful tiredness. And yet, God gives us Grace! Praise Him for that! I am praying for you, sista! Hang in there! You’ll make it through!
January 10, 2010 at 12:34 pm
Praying for you! I had to do it with both children at like 8 months when I couldn’t take no more than 2 hours at a time either! I know what you mean about it doesn’t fix it all though! I have an almost 4 year old and he consistently wakes up once a night to pee, to ask to have covers put on, because of a dream, you name it!!! But it is still better than 2 hours a time! I get like 6 hours usually before getting out of bed for some reason or another 🙂 This too shall pass my friend… praying with you…
January 11, 2010 at 9:10 am
I really know nothing about this from personal experience, but my friend Jacqueline has said great things about the “No Cry Sleep Solution” which sounds a little less harsh than regular CIO.
January 11, 2010 at 12:54 pm
You are amazing to be able to continue on with so little sleep. I hope that God gives you mercy.
A Wife Loved Like The Church 
January 10, 2010 at 9:26 am
I understand how you feel with regards to lack of sleep. We’re lucky if we get 3 consecutive hours in a night. I feel like we always have one excuse or another to not try CIO – she was colicky, had a busy day and missed naps, has an ear infection…but truly I just don’t know if my heart can handle listening to her scream!!
Good luck!!