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Archive for January 2010

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I feel like life is on repeat.

Child in the next room, awake before she should be, trying to soothe herself back to sleep.

Me at the computer, midnight blogging.

At some point this week, I realized I’ve been averaging at, or less than, 2 hours of sleep at one time for the last month. Last night, I was up every hour from 1-7. I think the strangest part is, I am not as exhausted as I imagined. There are moments during the day when I think I might very well fall over from exhaustion, but I manage to make it through. But, I can feel it catching up to me. I can feel my bones ache with tiredness. And so it begins.

Crying.

It.

Out.

Three words I dread as a mother. Three words that seem to bring far more misery than relief. With Julia, CIO was a tedious, painful task that resulted in, well, nothing. She still wakes up at night. For Hannah, I’ve been far more guarded, allowing her a pass, if you will, mostly because I am far to tired to allow her to CIO. She had been doing fine, sleeping 4+ hours in a row. But, since the move, things have been getting progressively worse. She tossed in an addition wake up time, then another, then another, and then another. Before I knew what happened, she was waking up every 1.5-2 hours. Sleep much?

Maybe, as you read this, you can pray for me. I’m less than enthusiastic about CIO, but don’t know any other option other than nursing all night. Just pray for grace and sleep. For me and Hannah.

I like New Year’s resolutions. I really do. Perhaps it’s because I love starting something new. And never finishing. Which, correct me if I’m wrong, is what defines a New Year’s resolution. This year my list seems to be a mile long, ranging from be more organized, to learn to have more self-control. Grand plans that I can already see dying quick deaths.

About 4 weeks ago, after watching Julie & Julia, I decided to make a list of 30 things to do before I turn 30. I’ve slowing been working on it, fine tuning my goals. Some of them seem downright ridiculous, while others actually seem do-able. I decided, instead of having a resolution, this year I will mark off 12 things from my list. Lofty plans, my friends.

1. Run a half marathon (DONE!! 4/18/10)

2. Learn to sew a dress

3. Learn conversational Spanish – 25 phrases

4. Write a children’s book for the girls

5. Complete a sprint triathlon

6. Learn to play 3 Christmas carols on the piano

7. Read through the Bible

8. Have a Girls’ Getaway Weekend (planned for 9/16/10-9/19/10)

9. Go on a family mission’s trip

10. Visit Paris

11. Visit Colorado

12. Visit Yellowstone

13. Host an over-the-top 5-course dinner party

14. Finish my wedding album

15. Memorize 100 verses

16. Start my own business/company

17. Get a tattoo (DONE!! 4/3/10)

18. Knit the girls each a blanket

19. Ride in a hot air balloon

20. Read The Great Gatsby

21. Submit a recipe to Southern Living

22. Speak before a large audience (50+ people) (3/3/10)

23. Learn conversational French – 25 phrases

24. Boldly share the Gospel to the people on my prayer list

25. Take Julia on a horseback ride

26. Take the girls to the Children’s Museum at Indianapolis

27. Own a Leg Lamp

28. Learn to make crepes (2/21/10)

29. Have another baby

30. Get my Teaching Certificate